Divorce

Divorce
Copyright 2009 Addie Hirschten
Pen and Pencil on Paper
9" x 12"

When I created the abstract scribbling above I was in the midst of a breakup.  The swelling form on the left is meant to depict my growing feelings of hope and passion.  The jagged line on the right was "the divide"... you know the part where "shields are up" and there is no meeting in the middle, there is no understanding, where you can't reach the other person no matter how hard you try to explain.  I remember wanting to scream "I want you to be happy too!  I always want what is best for you and this just isn't it.  If it's not working for me it can't possibly be working for you." The sun on the right represents the warmest part of that partner- the part that is him, the part that I love.

I dug up this picture this week because miraculously this partner has expressed that he finally understands all that I felt back then.  Not only understands it but he said, "I know now that you always had my best interests at heart... and I am so glad that you pushed me outside of my comfort zone."

I can't tell you how happy this makes me.  And none of this would have happened if I hadn't decided around that same time to be honest with everyone in my life.  It is as though by wading through all of this mucky yucky truth I have finally gotten to the center of the sun.  And it is a warm and wonderful place of acceptance.

I believe that unarmed truth and unconditional love will have the final word in reality.  This is why right, temporarily defeated, is stronger than evil triumphant.

-Martin Luther King, Jr.